The Murder of Helen Jewett by Patricia Cline Cohen

Author:Patricia Cline Cohen [Cohen, Patricia Cline]
Language: eng
Format: epub
Publisher: Knopf Doubleday Publishing Group
Published: 2010-11-17T04:30:00+00:00

It is unnecessary for me again to repeat to you “that I find much pleasure in accomplishing anything, which may be productive of happiness to you,” for all my efforts can never make suitable return for the generous disinterested course of conduct, which tells me more plainly than words that solicitude for my happiness seems interwoven with every feeling of your nature. You have too much good sense to flatter yourself that a woman’s heart is gained because her tongue speaks you fair.

You will not the more readily believe I love you madly, fondly love, because in all my letters I so frequently repeat the assertion. You, my dearest R., will recollect saying to me when you were last with me, that you were perhaps the happiest being I had ever met. I had often observed that such was the case, and it gives me pleasure because you deserve it. You are one of those happy persons gifted with so pleasing a disposition that you seem born for the purpose of commanding love. Your graceful ease of manner renders you welcome in any society, you are so obliging that you always interest yourself in what others are saying to you; indeed you forget yourself in order to oblige others; you flatter no one; affect nothing; consequently please every one; because nature has ordained that you should be pleasing, and I, but for reasons which you are already apprised of, should be the happiest woman in existence, to possess so large a share of your regard as I am convinced I do. I have met very few persons who could share in all my feelings so largely as —–, who was my earliest companion. When I walked, read, or conversed with him, I whispered to my heart, if I could find one like him how much I should love him. These are my earliest impressions; latterly there has been in me a romantic feeling that wished for, but quite despaired of ever finding a beau ideal, until I met you. I felt if devoted love or deep tenderness could make my heart happy, I was capable of imparting it, yet with all these ideas I did not entertain the thought that there could be found a living being who could love me, and now that I feel quite assured of being beloved by the only one whom I value, I feel no scruple of pride in acknowledging it. Your thoughts have now become the breath of my existence, you are entwined inseperably [sic] with my dearest feelings, and you repay me in all the sincerity of a heart generous, virtuous and uncontaminated by the views of those bad and vicious persons who I have heretofore met. The greatest kindness you have ever conferred upon me is permitting me to have your miniature. It is ever before me, and as the representative of one so dear to me, I prize it.

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